cloakandclaw: (looking sideways)
ヴィンセント・ヴァレンタイン ([personal profile] cloakandclaw) wrote 2008-05-01 08:02 am (UTC)

He has more appreciation for her friendship than she knows. What he'd like to do right now -- more than anything else -- is change the subject but... she's said he ought not to apologize so much. For the life of him -- aptly put -- he can't imagine why she or anyone else would want to be his friend, save for the fact that he's handy in battle. He doesn't add much to a conversation, he knows, or brighten up a room. He's not only dwelling in the past; he's mired there and can't seem to move forward.

In the end, it all comes back to sharing. It would be so easy for him at this moment to look Tifa square in the eye and say I don't think I'll tell you any more and leave, but he... values her friendship too much. If he loses that then he's lost everything he has here and he'll be truly alone.

Before he speaks, he shrugs his shoulders so very slightly. "Apology is old habit. Living in a coffin for three decades left me out of practice with social niceties." To his credit he doesn't apologize again. Instead, he gives Tifa a very small and very guarded smile. "Did you know Marlene asked me if I liked you? She... let herself into my room while I slept and loaned me her stuffed rabbit and then asked if I liked you. I told her I liked you very much."

The remnant of wistful smile stays on his face for just another moment or two before disappearing. "I'm... perhaps not so used to having people to share things with, Tifa. Often, I don't know how to go about it. It's always been difficult for me, even before."

Before he became this thing capable of destroying an entire planet on a whim.

He's carried so many secrets for so many years now. It would be a relief to be able to let go of some of them. How... do people go about that, though? Developing enough comfort with people to cry on their shoulders, figuratively speaking? What if he can't bring himself to do that? Who will he be failing this time?

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